Patience is a Virtue...

That the Lord is trying to teach me I lack.
I received a new computer about two weeks ago at work. This means a man comes and has to transfer over all of my documents and settings. This process took about 4 or 5 hours. And there are still some settings that have not been fine tuned as I had them before. Like on my blog it used to just allow the pop-up for the spell check and I did not have to click on the information bar and all that jazz. So I sat down yesterday and wrote out a blog about Ms. Anne my dear Sunday school teacher who passed away the 14th. I finish this post and decide to spell check, so I click on it a box shows up talking about not allowing pop-ups and to look at the information bar. So I click on the information bar and then a box comes up and I don't really read it but just click ok. Bad idea, take time, read what it has to say, it may be important. Like this will delete any unsaved information, i.e. the hours worth of post you just typed and don't have written anywhere else. Which is exactly, well not word for word, what it was telling me. So what happens...deletion of all that thought and time and effort. I shrugged it off and decided I was too frustrated with it to try it all over again.

Today is a new day, I decide to tackle it again. Ever heard fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me. Well shame on my computer yesterday, shame on me today. Once again I do the same thing. This time I actually read the box and it does not register to me what I have read until my hard work and deep thoughts disappear once again. NOOOOOOOO! Is my brain on break. Did I really just read what it said proceed to do what it warned me not to do and get frustrated when it did what it warned me it would do. Oh and it does not help to hit save as the text is disappearing, that will not bring it back.

This also points out how my devotions have been lately. A motion of reading words and seeing them but they are just not penetrating. The verse I have been memorizing this week, Jeremiah 17:7-8 Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord and whose trust is the Lord. For he will be like a tree planted by the water, that extends its roots by a stream and will not fear when the heat comes; but its leaves will be green, and it will not be anxious in a year of drought nor cease to yield fruit.

I have not been trusting in God lately. Work is stressing me, or lack of work I should say. I don't like what I do, or don't do. I was not made for this. But God knows what He is doing, He has me here for a reason, or He is leading me somewhere else now. I can only seek Him and wait for Him and trust that He has got the plan all figured out.

I have committed to go to school here in the fall and can't really afford to go if I am not working here full-time. But there are various other positions and departments that I could be working in. I think there is even a position open that only requires a high school diploma, and I would be doing something like what I will be going to school for. This is a possibility, the only problems are that I am comfortable in this position, and getting a new job would involve change. At the same time when school starts in this position I might be able to get all of my school work done here and continue to have a social life outside of work and school.

I ask that you would pray for contentment for me, wherever God has me. I ask that you would pray He would reveal His will for me.