I Do Still Exist

Clinicals have been eating me for lunch I tell you. The first day was a rough start. Nerves are a very powerful thing. I got in my room and scrubbed in and all and was just standing by my sterile field waiting for the patient to come in. Then I start feeling woozy and hot, start seeing dots and head over to a seat but blacked out and was banging into the OR table, my feet felt like 10 tons. The nurse got me seated and my eyesight returned and I calmed down. I went to the bathroom washed off my face talked to my instructor and eventually headed back. I scrubbed in again and got up to the field. The procedure was already taking place and I felt it again told my preceptor and stepped back. The team leader grabbed me sat me down and bent me over. I was working myself up so much my body was trying to pass out. So then he walked me into the lounge and I sat down with a Coke. Everyone was asking if I could be pregnant. I told them No Way. They asked if I had breakfast, yes I had oatmeal. There was physiologically no reason for me to be passing out. So then my instructor had me just observe the next procedure and if I could make it through then she wanted me to scrub in on the last case. Sure enough I watched the whole procedure and then scrubbed in the next one and did fine. I did catch myself getting hot before we started so I played in the sterile water and cooled off.
Yesterday went off without a hitch. Today was great too. When I have more time I will give you some juicy details. For now I need to start and finish my exit paperwork. I never imagined I would have to do so much to resign from work. I also am still waiting to hear from the guy who interviewed me, he told me he would get back to me today, so I could attempt to just transfer instead of resigning and having to go through orientation again. It is a two day long no-fun process that I have already gone through. Please Lord may I get this job.